"BAD MOM AWARD..."

So I have been debating whether to post this and I have come to the conclusion that I need to for my sake so I can remember this tragic event!!! On Wednesday night I was going about my usual routine of feeding Crew and then starting dinner before Nick got home. As usual Crew was on the counter top in his Bumbo. Just a little side note; Crew is very strong. He wants to stand all the time and never wants to sit. His legs may look chunky but they are super strong. So I start to make dinner, and I bent down to get a pan from underneath my island. As I got it out and put it on the counter top to spray with Pam I hear this LOUD "thud"! OH NO! What happened? All I knew is Crew was NOT on the counter any more. I SCREAMED! He was on the kitchen floor face down, still in the Bumbo. My heart dropped. Was he breathing? Did he brake something? I hurried and got him out and his face was purple. He then took a deep breath and out came the cry I was waiting for. My poor baby. No blood, no bruising to what I could see, but was very scared. Nick wasn't home yet and I was freaking out. What a horrible mom, I kept thinking to myself. How could I let something so bad happen to my little boy? I call Nick and that is when I burst into tears. "It's all my fault," I said. Nick tried to calm me down but I still felt horrible. By the time he got home Crew had fallen asleep on my chest. I didn't want to ever let him go. Not sure if I should have let him fall asleep but he seemed to be fine. I gave him some Motrin that night when he went to bed. I am SURE he had a headache. Good news... the next morning he was COMPLETELY FINE. Crew was back to his happy self. Boy did I feel like the worst mom ever. No worries I got a highchair the very next day. No more Bumbo on the counter top. Funny enough, well not funny, but the Bumbo was actually recalled for that very reason. People were putting there kids in it on high counters and they fall out of them. Maybe I should be better at following rules!! All I have to say is I am so thankful he is OK. Not sure if this has happened to anyone else but I hope I am not the only one who has made this kind of mistake. Why do I have to learn the hard way? Well glad it is off my chest!! Hope no one thinks I am the worst mom ever!!